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i slept for about 10 hours and im so. tired. i wasnt this tired running on 5 hours of sleep. i have to wonder if maybe its sleep apnea & if its just been bad. i can barely keep my eyes open. maybe i need to go less carbs/gluten? ive been eating alot of tortillas recently. also ketchup has gluten apparently. i think for now its fine to just stop the obvious sources of gluten & not the smaller ones. also could be stress, i was definitely a bit wired on lower sleep (..although i preferred it to fatigue.) i may still eat a scooby snack thoigh. a liltl treatse. ok ok if im sleepy again its probably from gluten or maybe even sugar
learning things is making me wake up i think. also daylight. also switching but shut uppp
no its just because of my period yipeekiyay. ive started doing more pointed self care during that time but ive never really put it on paper. chocolate (milk), showering, permission to stay in bed, and permission to experience happiness is my usual self care for it. i need to get better at showering consistently though. i mostly just do the bed thing in the first few days since thats when my energys the worst
found socialwork buffalos self help pages :) also decided to listen to some yt videos about cptsd/shame/vicarious trauma. this persons talking about repressing the need 4 comfort & i think im getting better at letting myself have comfort- even if only in specific circumstances & without people.
id rather a soundcloud subscription than a youtube one tbh. theres some content on yt i want to get through without ads still, but honestly? its less worth it compared with how i use each of them.
im awake more now i think i just didnt engage enough, well until i started learning more about mental health anyways.
im thinking about making these private. im not sure if other people need to hear about my day & thoughts yknow?
went outside, tried to go to the spirit in the mall but it closed an hour earlier than the site said it did. pokemon'd instead- did a route and cleared 470 pkmn out of my storage. accidentally ran over an armadillo, it went between the tires, but something definitely hit the car. it was able to run off & didnt see any blood so hopefully it was just an armor plate we grazed or a very well timed rock.
mom decided to talk about very serious and important things right before i slept so ill need a longer wind down than usual. hows everyones day been?
learning things is making me wake up i think. also daylight. also switching but shut uppp
no its just because of my period yipeekiyay. ive started doing more pointed self care during that time but ive never really put it on paper. chocolate (milk), showering, permission to stay in bed, and permission to experience happiness is my usual self care for it. i need to get better at showering consistently though. i mostly just do the bed thing in the first few days since thats when my energys the worst
found socialwork buffalos self help pages :) also decided to listen to some yt videos about cptsd/shame/vicarious trauma. this persons talking about repressing the need 4 comfort & i think im getting better at letting myself have comfort- even if only in specific circumstances & without people.
id rather a soundcloud subscription than a youtube one tbh. theres some content on yt i want to get through without ads still, but honestly? its less worth it compared with how i use each of them.
im awake more now i think i just didnt engage enough, well until i started learning more about mental health anyways.
im thinking about making these private. im not sure if other people need to hear about my day & thoughts yknow?
went outside, tried to go to the spirit in the mall but it closed an hour earlier than the site said it did. pokemon'd instead- did a route and cleared 470 pkmn out of my storage. accidentally ran over an armadillo, it went between the tires, but something definitely hit the car. it was able to run off & didnt see any blood so hopefully it was just an armor plate we grazed or a very well timed rock.
mom decided to talk about very serious and important things right before i slept so ill need a longer wind down than usual. hows everyones day been?
