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wake up in the morning whack my-
so i tried sleeping on a response. didnt work so i gave up and sent a meme back. looked at tpoh and OMG ASSOK IS BACK OMG :DDD
my initial anxiety is in fact going down (...or maybe im just repressing it) but whatevers the case im not like dying each time i receive and send a message. just crying internally
im supposed to deal with my laptop today.. well i have to do pokemon day tomorrow so i guess i can put it off & make an excuse.
got into the new fairytail, surprisingly i suppose. its addictive tbh. i kinda headcanon natsu as ace the way hes so damn clueless
ive decided to create a casual no stakes minicomic series, as a sort of prequel to a comic i want to create yet too paralyzed by fear to make. im calling it liminal abyss, idk where im posting it though.
had a panic attack again. this time i had my fitbit on and it clocked at 90bpm (my normal is 60-77). 105bpm while moving around. i just worry that my hearts failing me but i know its stress + anxiety.
also i fucking forgot that lethal company uses the microphone, and omg its anxiety inducing like i fucking haaate how i sound. i sound 10 even though im 19. my god. i havent even played yet.
im going to wasabicon next weekend. hopefully. ill remind myself to remind my mom TO NOT STAY UP THE ENTIRE NIGHT BEFORE AND NOT WAKE UP IN TIME. its become a pattern. also speaking of! been watching youtube and like. some of these people describe my mom prettyy good and i wont lie that scares me with the other shit they say people like her do.
whatever im going to create a motherfucking plan to get out of here and thats going to include some stupidass failsafes.
eurgh
lets think of something positive now, shall we? i think that dress i drew yesterday fucking bangs. i watched some of highcrafts new videos. umm...
well today was basically a nothing day. but at least im aware of it. awareness is the first step to recovery after all.
also all my fucking pokesleep eevees are best as a jolteon wtf i cant have 4 jolteons
so i tried sleeping on a response. didnt work so i gave up and sent a meme back. looked at tpoh and OMG ASSOK IS BACK OMG :DDD
my initial anxiety is in fact going down (...or maybe im just repressing it) but whatevers the case im not like dying each time i receive and send a message. just crying internally
im supposed to deal with my laptop today.. well i have to do pokemon day tomorrow so i guess i can put it off & make an excuse.
got into the new fairytail, surprisingly i suppose. its addictive tbh. i kinda headcanon natsu as ace the way hes so damn clueless
ive decided to create a casual no stakes minicomic series, as a sort of prequel to a comic i want to create yet too paralyzed by fear to make. im calling it liminal abyss, idk where im posting it though.
had a panic attack again. this time i had my fitbit on and it clocked at 90bpm (my normal is 60-77). 105bpm while moving around. i just worry that my hearts failing me but i know its stress + anxiety.
also i fucking forgot that lethal company uses the microphone, and omg its anxiety inducing like i fucking haaate how i sound. i sound 10 even though im 19. my god. i havent even played yet.
im going to wasabicon next weekend. hopefully. ill remind myself to remind my mom TO NOT STAY UP THE ENTIRE NIGHT BEFORE AND NOT WAKE UP IN TIME. its become a pattern. also speaking of! been watching youtube and like. some of these people describe my mom prettyy good and i wont lie that scares me with the other shit they say people like her do.
whatever im going to create a motherfucking plan to get out of here and thats going to include some stupidass failsafes.
eurgh
lets think of something positive now, shall we? i think that dress i drew yesterday fucking bangs. i watched some of highcrafts new videos. umm...
well today was basically a nothing day. but at least im aware of it. awareness is the first step to recovery after all.
also all my fucking pokesleep eevees are best as a jolteon wtf i cant have 4 jolteons
